On August 9th, 9yrs ago my mother died of complications of diabetes brought on by Colon Cancer. She fought to the end. Afterwards the framework I built fell apart. I turned into a miserable bastard. Others in their own mourning and facing their own issues turned from me. This drove me deeper into that dark place. Notjohnharker was my rock, she refused to leave no matter how hard I raged or tried to get her to leave. There is a reason for my devotion to her. But the memories of that

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This goes out to anyone that is following me. The last couple of weeks have been hard. In one day I lost my merchandizing job, the position had been elimanated via corporate restructureing, and then lost another job I had been working on for 16 years. That is where the true crux of this blog post lies. I lost that position when a Facebook post that I had written in support of others going through some tough times, was reported to the police. Thing is, my Facebook page since its inception

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This goes out to anyone that is following me. The last couple of weeks have been hard. In one day I lost my merchandizing job, the position had been elimanated via corporate restructureing, and then lost another job I had been working on for 16 years. That is where the true crux of this blog post lies. I lost that position when a Facebook post that I had written in support of others going through some tough times, was reported to the police. Thing is, my Facebook page since its inception

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